I can't and I won't go into details but this week hasn't been the best of weeks for me and I am trying to stay on the positive note.
I am really in my own zone and actually feel like I need some "me time" to focus. It is weird cause I do spend a lot of time alone, but I don't mind that cause I am pretty focused on Azelia and other things that I need to do for myself in the future, but the time to start doing them is now now now and not a minute later.
I stay really positive most of my time and being a mom you really have no choice, there is some one looking up to you so the smiley face has to stay on. Even at that I am a kind of person that likes to keep it real and not "fake" my emotions. So I thought perhaps putting a few words down might make it "feel" better.
I can't really say what's going on with me cause it is really personal to me and its really weighing down on me but I try to stay positive cause I know that god never gives us more than we can handle.
Yesterday night after keeping it all in, I kind of broke down and I was surprise that it has been taking this big a part of my emotions but it is what it is. I guess I never actually felt like this about this kind of thing this way and I needed my little "break down" to feel a little better.
I am sorry if I don't call/hangout/act as I usually do towards some of you, I just need some time alone and thinking space.
I'll be gone till next november (hahah joke) no but seriously, it needs to take the time it takes. It's a thing I'm going through that I believe we all do go through in some point of our lives. I'm just going through it now. I don't think my friends and family know what's going on, I've spoke to one relative about it and a few friends just a little but the only one that really knows is my man. He was really confused yesterday hehe...he wanted to comfort me but I said nothing was wrong at first then I broke down (women huh?).
It felt better talking to him and letting it all out.
I guess I didn't know what was really going on with me. But I've embraced the feeling and I'm dealing with the punches, that's all I can say.
Sorry for being absent people, hope you some how can understand and when this is over, hope to see you again!
Well back to bed (timer post)